Things are looking up for the moment

The last couple of days have been unusually fruitful as far as my old creativity and lust for life are concerned. I've actually been fairly productive and *gasp* coming up with some cool graphic ideas at work. Pity it's only coming back to me now that I have only a couple of weeks left at my job. Hmm...it's like, things are wrapping up, I don't have quite the amount of pressure as before, or something, but at least for now it feels like something got unblocked, like a drain trap stuffed with ancient globs of greasy hair, and things that used to make me inspired and happy are starting to flow through again.

Take the anime-on-YouTube thing. Used to be that if I could be bothered to pay attention to anime at all--even though inside I felt tormented by impotent nostalgia and latent love for the good old days at Tri-A and Otakon and such--I'd just let it slide by. It felt different this time...like, for the first time in ages, I actually feel that I'd like to watch some anime for the sheer enjoyment of it, and go to a convention or a club meeting somewhere, and fraternize with other otaku.

It's like (I'm saying "it's like" a lot tonight, aren't I?) my job has forced a soulless, joyless kind of adulthood on me these last few years--ie financial difficulties, the pressures of trying to build a career and a middle-class lifestyle on a tenaciously entry-level salary, a basic aversion to the 9-to-5 routine, the concomitant despair of getting nowhere very slowly--and now that I can see past it to my future in New Jersey, a bit of that carefree twentysomething attitude is starting to reassert itself. Whee!

I hope it's not just an illusion caused by the onset of nice weather or some other mundane reason.