well, how long will THIS last?

I can't believe it...I've actually been feeling better lately. More relaxed, less jittery and depressed. I don't know why. Not much has really changed. Well maybe a couple of things, but I'll discuss those another time.

I am incredibly tired, though. Thank dog that I'm off tomorrow.

My interest level has ticked upwards regarding those things that I love. Music for sure. Graphic arts too. I spent my last couple of days off goofing off in Photoshop, working on some old unfinished artwork that I had archived on CDs. Yep, I still have it in me. I even started thinking about trying to play around with some design ideas, maybe in Illustrator. Perhaps I could even start fooling around with some website ideas for my as-yet-stillborn freelance biz. Remember wispir-design.com?

I'll tell you something else I'm itching to get back into: photography. And I don't mean digital--I mean drag out one of my old SLRs, spool up a roll of TX400 or something similar (actually I have several rolls of Fuji Neopan--all expired--that I need to use up, dammit), and start snapping away, just like the old days. I have three SLRs, you know: two Pentaxes (K1000, ZX5) and a nice old black Nikkormat FT2. You know, I was excited to have bought a Nikon D80 digital SLR...saddened to have to sell it before even turning it on once...and now I'm determined that I'm not going to let that get in the way of reviving that particular hobby. I always was a film die-hard. Still am. And film is not dead. I do wish I still had my other cameras, my Mamiya C330 medium format TLR and my Canonet QL17 GIII rangefinder, but I suppose that I could probably pick examples of those up again when I have disposable income again. Ooh ooh ooh, you know what I really want?? One of those Russian-made Hasselblad copies, the Kiev and the Arax. And then on a trip back home I could bring back my old Bogen enlarger (bought for $10 from the Volunteers of America thrift store on W. Broad St. on the outskirts of Columbus) and set it up in our bathroom and print photos from both 135 and 120 negatives, and I could buy trays and a big Gralab timer with a luminous dial on eBay! Oooh! Yeah!

Oh, my head's hurting.